It’s been a while since we’ve had time together here. A lot of things have changed in my life and I’d say that I’m not only happier but I’m better for them. I suppose in order to find the catalyst of some of the most recent changes, I’ll go back to March of 2012. That was when I met someone who would unknowingly lead me to door that would make me happier than I thought I would ever be allowed. This isn’t about her though. This is about what I learned.
I don’t talk about my beliefs often online and only seldom with my closest friends and family whom I trust considerably. In the not-too-distant past, something has happened. I’ve learned some things about myself in which I may have not without a very specific series of events. I’m not sure how much detail I want to get into here. I’ll do what I do best – wing it and see what happens
I’ve not always believed in the concept of destiny at face value. On the surface, and maybe I’m wrong, it seems to be a concept that we are on a linear course through life and have no real input on where we end up. Well, I’m not willing to believe that. As I may have mentioned, I believe in choice. I believe that we do not have one set path ahead of us but that we have many paths with many variables affecting the next step. I suppose you could call this a non-linear fate if you chose.
Back to what I’ve learned. Some time in May of this year a decision was presented to be. One of 2 doors that would affect the next. I could either stay complacent in my menial, low-paying, somewhat-miserable life or I could take a very daunting step toward changing it. I had chosen wisely.
On an alternate path, my relationship had run it’s course. It started much earlier than May, let’s say November, let’s say November 20, 2012. I won’t go farther on that. The relationship was done. I was hurt but only at first. When I clued in my friends and family I got a lot of “I’m sorry” and “Sometimes it isn’t meant to be.” – they were right. It’s never meant to be. Until it is.
This change coincided with others. Perhaps it was my destiny. Nearly in perfect sync with my relationship officially dissolving, I was offered a job that I, both, love and really needed financially. I also learned some things about my personality that I’d buried so deep I didn’t realize they existed. I’m a happy man. Of course, I also live in the real world and understand that things can and often do change. Not always for the positive. But, as I’ve said, everything that happens to us in life is an chance to learn. Learn from it and apply it.
I’m writing this from the living room of the most amazing woman I’ve ever had the fortune of meeting. She has shown me doors that I will be eternally grateful for. But this isn’t about her. It’s about what I’ve learned.
Maybe there is something to this destiny business after all. I like to have the answers but sometimes I just don’t. What has happened in my life as of recent cannot be easily explained with logic. You could say, perhaps, Karma is at work. Possibly, I’ve just earned enough ethereal currency to cash in on happiness. Maybe it’s just luck (hint: it’s not). Who knows, maybe it is fate or destiny, perhaps with a little bit of magic stirred in. Then again, maybe it’s something else entirely. It’s not my job to question why. Just enjoy every minute as it could, most unfortunately, shift like a summer wind.